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Recent Posts

  • An estuary where the sea meets dirt and debris, symbolizing the heavy stillness of anxiety.Living With Anxiety — A Little Bit More Than Before
    In Buffering Diaries, Cuts and Cracks
  • Yellow balcony with a coffee mug on the railing, symbolizing a quiet moment of connection with the woman across the balcony.The Lady Across the Balcony
    In Buffering Diaries, Cuts and Cracks
  • Daughter sitting at her mother’s resting place, brushing off dust, with sunlight falling through leaves.Mummy’s Floor
    In Buffering Diaries
  • An estuary where the sea meets dirt and debris, symbolizing the heavy stillness of anxiety.
    Buffering Diaries,  Cuts and Cracks

    Living With Anxiety — A Little Bit More Than Before

    October 17, 2025 /

    Even on the days I’m not so sure — this is for the ones who think healing is loud, and for the quiet battles fought behind held breaths. Anxiety doesn’t need a reason; it just needs space to be understood.

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  • 3 closets drawer filled with bras, highlighting the struggle of bra problems and finding the perfect fit.
    Bold Roast

    Bra Problems: Why We Own 3 Dozens but Wear Only a Few

    October 16, 2025 /

    I have a closet full of bras, yet I rotate only a handful. Some suffocate, some sit pretty like museum exhibits, and most are a daily reminder that comfort is a myth.

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  • Zoe with dog anxiety during fireworks on her daylight cloth.
    Buffering Diaries,  My Highness Zoe,  Royal Furball Chronicles

    Not Pause. Paws.

    August 31, 2025 /

    When firecrackers trigger Zoe’s anxiety, I realize her panic mirrors my own. This is what it means to live with overstimulation, tough hearts, and the weight of love.

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  • Not the story. Not anymore.
    Bold Roast,  Cuts and Cracks

    Cracking the Shell: Silence, Stability & Noise

    August 24, 2025 /

    Silence never saved me. My father asked for stability, my mother for provision, the industry for performance. None heard the noise inside. This is the crack I made.

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  • Black and white photo of a silhouette against a dusky sky, symbolising emotional heaviness and the slow struggle to detach.
    Bold Roast,  Buffering Diaries

    Detach: The Ache of Letting Go Between Victimhood and Validation

    August 1, 2025 /

    Detach, they said. But how do you let go of what you never got to hold properly? This piece sits in the space between survival and silence — between needing to be seen and finally seeing yourself.

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  • Poetic black-and-white visual expressing emotional exhaustion
    Buffering Diaries

    I Tried. And Then I Didn’t. And Then I Just Was.

    July 31, 2025 /

    I tried to be there — for others, for the world, for the ghosts that raised me. But when it came to me, I was shut out. This is what it feels like to unravel, and still offer thanks while drowning.

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  • Stillness with emotional weight – visual metaphor for emotional fatigue caused by silence
    Buffering Diaries,  Cuts and Cracks

    When Silence Drains You: Surviving Emotional Fatigue in a Quiet World

    July 28, 2025 /

    Heavy silence can feel draining, overwhelming, and emotionally exhausting—here’s what it means and why it happens.

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  • Buffering Diaries,  Cuts and Cracks

    Grey Hour Poem – Stillness, Dusk, and the Ache Before Sadness

    July 17, 2025 /

    Not quite sadness—just the ache that comes before it. The hour of still things.

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  • Noise Disruption During Meditation
    #Merlunfiltered - The Visual Mess

    Mornings Are a Joke I Keep Telling Myself

    July 12, 2025 /

    This morning, I almost made it out of bed. But then the walker squeaked, the cousin got triggered, the cook forgot onions, and the universe pressed snooze on my sanity. Mornings? They're a running joke. And I keep telling it—loudly, silently, sarcastically.

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  • Cuts and Cracks

    Bubbly Regret: Served Cold, Crashing Fast

    July 10, 2025 /

    F*ck. Beer was a terrible idea. Two sips in and my body exits the chat like it’s allergic to joy.

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MERLYN MATHIAS

Truth-slinger. Word snob.
Chaos whisperer.
I don’t sugarcoat —
I serve the whole damn lemon.
Fueled by caffeine, side-eyes, and
2 a.m. honesty.
Too honest? Too bad.

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Recent Posts

  • Living With Anxiety — A Little Bit More Than Before
  • The Lady Across the Balcony
  • Mummy’s Floor

Sections

  • #Merlunfiltered – The Visual Mess (18)
  • Bold Roast (23)
  • Buffering Diaries (31)
  • Cuts and Cracks (18)
  • Mangii Gossip Diaries (8)
  • My Highness Zoe (3)
  • Royal Furball Chronicles (2)
  • Unfiltered Letters (12)

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