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  • An estuary where the sea meets dirt and debris, symbolizing the heavy stillness of anxiety.Living With Anxiety — A Little Bit More Than Before
    In Buffering Diaries, Cuts and Cracks
  • Yellow balcony with a coffee mug on the railing, symbolizing a quiet moment of connection with the woman across the balcony.The Lady Across the Balcony
    In Buffering Diaries, Cuts and Cracks
  • Daughter sitting at her mother’s resting place, brushing off dust, with sunlight falling through leaves.Mummy’s Floor
    In Buffering Diaries

Emotional Unapology

Over-thinker. Under-replier. Emotionally literate but socially exhausted.
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  • An estuary where the sea meets dirt and debris, symbolizing the heavy stillness of anxiety.
    Buffering Diaries,  Cuts and Cracks

    Living With Anxiety — A Little Bit More Than Before

    October 17, 2025 /

    Even on the days I’m not so sure — this is for the ones who think healing is loud, and for the quiet battles fought behind held breaths. Anxiety doesn’t need a reason; it just needs space to be understood.

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  • Yellow balcony with a coffee mug on the railing, symbolizing a quiet moment of connection with the woman across the balcony.
    Buffering Diaries,  Cuts and Cracks

    The Lady Across the Balcony

    October 16, 2025 /

    She leaned across her balcony, towel draped over the wall, elbows resting, life paused. In that quiet space, I witnessed grief held gently, joy carried softly, and a stranger’s heart opening just enough to leave a trace.

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  • Daughter sitting at her mother’s resting place, brushing off dust, with sunlight falling through leaves.
    Buffering Diaries

    Mummy’s Floor

    October 16, 2025 /

    Sitting on my mother’s floor, I faced grief, dust, and memory—learning that light exists even where venom lingers.

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  • Red poster with white text: “They don’t miss you, they miss your ego.” Minimalist design about walking away and reclaiming peace
    #Merlunfiltered - The Visual Mess,  Buffering Diaries

    Done With Life: The Quiet Ending

    October 16, 2025 /

    I’m not angry. I’m just finished. A quiet ending — not out of hate, but out of clarity. This is what it sounds like when you finally stop explaining yourself.

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  • The childhood tree in full bloom, its branches heavy with ripe chikku, a witness to laughter, scraped knees, and secret swings.
    #Merlunfiltered - The Visual Mess,  Buffering Diaries,  Mangii Gossip Diaries

    Climbing Memory: A Childhood Tree and the Fires Within

    October 16, 2025 /

    Remembering the childhood tree — a place of joy, scraped knees, and secret swings — and the fire of memory it still carries.

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  • Person standing barefoot on the estuary shore at sunset, with gentle waves and scattered shells.
    #Merlunfiltered - The Visual Mess,  Mangii Gossip Diaries

    Mangalore: An Evening by the Estuary

    October 16, 2025 /

    At the Mangalore estuary evening, I tread barefoot on sharp boulders and sand, watching tides push and pull like memories. Dogs tumble, fishermen observe, and the sun carves its way toward the horizon. Just an hour, yet the estuary holds me — smoke in hand, sea salt in the air, Zoe at my side. Unfiltered, deep, fleeting — a moment worth lingering for, pulled back like the currents themselves.

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  • Person on a crowded Indian Railways platform, wearing sunglasses, looking anxious and overwhelmed by germs and chaos.”
    Buffering Diaries,  Cuts and Cracks

    Indian Railways Anxiety: A Raw Personal Travel Story

    October 16, 2025 /

    Indian Railways anxiety: not ghosts, not heartbreak — just germs, chaos, and me questioning every life choice on the platform. Eight hand sanitisers later, I’m still wondering if the train will betray me with the wrong coach.

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    Travel Reflections Krabi: Sea, Silence, and Moral Witness

    October 16, 2025 /

    During a snorkelling trip in Krabi, vibrant sea life clashed with human indifference. A personal reflection on travel, conscience, and witnessing injustice.

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  • Illustration symbolizing the art of doing too much, depicting emotional weight, overextending, and the burden of caring for others.
    Buffering Diaries

    Backpack of Stones: Navigating Trauma and CPTSD

    October 16, 2025 /

    A deeply personal essay exploring the relentless weight of borderline personality, trauma, anxiety, and depression — and the quiet human need to be seen and understood.

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  • Even in pieces, I can still stand against the wind
    #Merlunfiltered - The Visual Mess,  Buffering Diaries

    Writing as Self-Reflection: Confronting Fear and Paralysis

    October 16, 2025 /

    Writing became my icebreaker — a way to confront fear, reflect on my life, and keep moving forward, even when everything felt heavy and overwhelming.

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MERLYN MATHIAS

Truth-slinger. Word snob.
Chaos whisperer.
I don’t sugarcoat —
I serve the whole damn lemon.
Fueled by caffeine, side-eyes, and
2 a.m. honesty.
Too honest? Too bad.

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Recent Posts

  • Living With Anxiety — A Little Bit More Than Before
  • The Lady Across the Balcony
  • Mummy’s Floor

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  • Buffering Diaries (31)
  • Cuts and Cracks (18)
  • Mangii Gossip Diaries (8)
  • My Highness Zoe (3)
  • Royal Furball Chronicles (2)
  • Unfiltered Letters (12)

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